Christmas used to be my favorite time of year. Now it is just full of frustration and stress. I hate being a wife and mother at Christmas. I usually get few if any presents. I never get what I want.
What I don't enjoy:
1) A messy house. Not one person cleans up after themselves, not one. Chore chart you say? It's on the wall--now what? It is my responsibility to remind everyone?
2) The School schedule ignored. I've tried very hard to stop being angry all the time. Consequently, the kids no longer take me or their school work seriously. We are one week from Christmas Day and not one of them is done with their semester's work. Today, on my schedule, would have been the last day of school until the New Year. Sigh. Now I can't enjoy baking and decorating next week.
3) The fact that I cannot do housework and have any of the children do their school work at the same time. Even when I am cleaning in the same room, they stop working.
4) My husband who gets up at o-dark-thirty, wakes me up every time--even on SATURDAY, the only day I could sleep in, but can nap anytime he pleases.
5) The fact that I am about 30 pounds over weight (since about 17 years ago, when I started having kids). I am so stressed and tired, I cannot motivate myself to exercise.
6) Feeling guilty about feeling stressed and angry. I sure have a lot more than most in my situation in life.
7) Have almost no friends at this time of year. My sister was once my best friend, now I never even hear from her. Their was someone who I thought was a friend who, apparently, has no time for me. I have been cultivating a relatively new girl friendship but we're so busy, it is hard to get together.
Now, I'll see if I can count my blessings:
1) I can receive Christ in the Eucharist. In this way, Christ is always with me in a very tangible and real way.
2) I have become involved in Catholic Apologetics in the last year or so. And, even though he was condescending, one prot 'apologist' actually called me (well, not me personally but a group I belong to) one of the "new crop of Catholic apologists."
3) I completed my first class on my way to receiving a Bachelor's degree in Theology. I have yet to receive my final grade, but I'll just be happy to pass.
4) My oldest son is still with us. My son has survived four St. Nicholas Days after he was hospitalized in a near coma. Type 1 diabetes is a serious illness not taken very seriously any more, mostly because the treatment usually results in a lifelong treatment. Only a few short decades ago it was a death sentence. Praise God for the timing.
5) My five year old is learning his letters.
6) A couple of my kids have problems in school but none have learning disabilities.
7) My oldest got 162 on his PSAT. Yeah! A full 30 points higher than on his practice test at home.
8) My parents are still alive. I should call my mother more often.
9) I have lovely new white counters in my kitchen.
10) I will enjoy making the planned gingerbread village this year.
11) There's a beautiful $20 Douglas fir tree in my living room.
12) We can get the kids at least one thing they really want for Christmas.
13) I have a long distance friend who trusts me enough to be a contributor and an editor on his blog. Thanks S.W. I appreciate the trust.
14) One son will be an altar boy at Christ's Mass on December 25th.
Second list outweighs the first. Praise the Lord! I've got nothing to complain about. Rant done.
Let us remember the "Reason for the season"--Our Lord Jesus Christ.
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